Hello baby

After the bleed, the fear and a night of no sleep at all for worrying so much, we decided to have another scan, just to see if everything was ok.

This is something I never did when I had kids in my 20s. I was SO relaxed about the whole thing and breezed through them all. I was young! I had time on my side. My body felt like some kind of invincible machine.

But now, in my 40s, everything just seems so much more...vulnerable.
I'm acutely aware of a sort of 'last chance at the ok baby corale' thing, and the idea of anything going wrong is too much for me to bear. 

So off we went to the ultrasound place again. And THERE it was!! πŸ‘ΆπŸ»πŸ˜πŸ˜πŸ˜.
Now the size of a grape (how big a grape?? A 1-inch grape, according to Babycentre UK ) and .... its genitals are forming. Whoop! A grape with genitals! You don't get THOSE in Waitrose.
Thank goodness.

Totally rocking its #ootd, known as 'developing nude', I think it looks BEAUTIFUL.

The sight of that foetus, the SOUND of that ❀️❀️❀️was just the most reassuring thing EVER.

Thank you, baby. Thank you thank you for being ok. You are a SUPERSTAR.
Now stop making your mummy throw up every day please, ok??!! X

10 weeks

Bleeding hell